Depression!!!

[Conman]

well i dont go ridiculous with it. when im tired, im tired and chill

[excel]

My depression is much better!

[Conman]

did you build stuff and stay occupieds?

[excel]

I think it's mostly my medication

[Conman]

ah well there's that too.

[Conman]

since im looking at this thread, anybody else become their hardest critic and/or worst enemy? ive built that problem somehow and it ****es me the hell off

[StoicNate]

Originally Posted by Conman

since im looking at this thread, anybody else become their hardest critic and/or worst enemy? ive built that problem somehow and it ****es me the hell off

I might be my worst enemy too. Especially my thoughts.

Sometimes I beat myself up about it for no reason at all.

[Conman]

i mostly beat up when i know i irritated somebody due to my being critical of myself. then i start feeling like ****. then i apologize, and apologize...and apologize...

[excel]

Nope! I am actually better.

[tudorose]

Originally Posted by StoicNate

I might be my worst enemy too. Especially my thoughts.

Sometimes I beat myself up about it for no reason at all.

Totally. I've been trying to change this for a long time.

[Conman]

highschool has without a doubt been the biggest trigger for my depression problems. i probably get depressed for 2-3 weeks every 2 months or so due to social surroundings. i cannot relate to anybody i know personally, because i dont know any adhd people who have depression problems, or just people like me. and i dont even know how to describe my ****ing self, it's just something you have to see, or meet me in person. college should be easier since therell be 20x more people than highschool, and higher chances of meeting similar people. god i ****ing hate highschool

[tudorose]

Hang in there Conman. I know this might seem hard to believe but once you get out time will go so fast and you'll hardly ever think of it. The nightmare becomes a distant memory.

[80S FAN]

Originally Posted by Conman

highschool has without a doubt been the biggest trigger for my depression problems. i probably get depressed for 2-3 weeks every 2 months or so due to social surroundings. i cannot relate to anybody i know personally, because i dont know any adhd people who have depression problems, or just people like me. and i dont even know how to describe my ****ing self, it's just something you have to see, or meet me in person. college should be easier since therell be 20x more people than highschool, and higher chances of meeting similar people. god i ****ing hate highschool

Been there and done that. HIGH SCHOOL SUCKED ...grade school and jr. high was even worse!

But you younger guys got it a lot easier than we did back in the day.

1. you guys have social networking and cellphones ect. to help you find
friends simular to you, and to stay in contact with them, email ect.

only way we found others like us is look for the kid in recess outside on the ground with a bloody nose. who got beat up.

2. kids today are more open minded to diffrent cultures people creative freethinkers ect. due to
mind expantion ala world wide web. back in the day, if you were not a stinky unbathed rock kid" KISS fan" type of kid. who tried to dress like the Ramones, "but i think the ramones were really one of us adhd outsider types" you were not one of them and got screwed with

(speaking about my regional public school...your school trauma may vary)

no middle ground. it was clean cut kid or mean A#$$%hole kid.

now days you have nice EMO kids and green hippy wannabee save the earth karma kids ,& other types,that you can chill with a bit.

(note* dont be a mean person to them trying to mimic the normal kids behavior of taunting them so you can gain acceptance with the normal kids) normal kids have evil non adhd uncompassionate karma will get them later brain. you do not want to be one of them, only survive with them.)

Now if your feeling sad you can go to a forum and express it to others.

we had none of that luxury, it was tell the school principals or mom.
principals were total F%^*&^$ jerks, and discrimitive to non conforming
non jock ect. types.

nerds were even mean too! got along with semi geek kids well

but as the previous post read, it fades away from memory.
and I dont even think about it at all, actually wish i could go back to my
kid years and do it again! this time with social non adhd tendencies.

and with the confidence I now have, make all those guys in school jeolous of me
by messing with their girlfriends!.

Its the best years of your life and you dont even know it. feels like total
crap...but belive me. these are the good years.

one day we get older and wish to be young and redo the past again.

not too late conman. you can do it...find real friends somewhere out there and enjoy youth and have some good memories to reflect on in the future.

hope you find some good people in school and college


Anybody else from the Oldschool can relate to what im saying to Conman?
and help break him out of that depression many of us went thru?

[Conman]

i try to find friends, but i dont know how to explain it. they love the fact im there when im there with them, but they dont make efforts to tell me of plans or anything where i could be there. i blame my school alongside the french, cuz it's private catholic...we are among the ****tiest of kids

we dont have hippies or emos, and i wouldnt hang out with them anyway, but i wouldnt be a dick to them either. i dont really fit into a subgenre of a group of kids at all. most of my 'friends' arnt either, although a certain percentage are stupid cuz they use synthetics and ****

[80S FAN]

i blame my school alongside the french, cuz it's private catholic...we are among the ****tiest of kids

we dont have hippies or emos,

wow, private school! I did that too. you have to conform there,other students dont want to act rebelious or impulsive, thats what PRIVATE school is about, getting away from the openminded unmannered ruffians of society.

private school was way nicer(no mean kids) than our horrible public schools.

tips on making friends I aint too good at, still trying to perfect my social skills
I saw your pictures u posted on your bio....first one sitting in chair thing scared me away, but all the other ones you took with the ladies made me
laugh and be jelous at the same time.. especially u and the porn star pic.

if you was in my school, and i saw those pics, I would have made it a point to make you a good buddy of mine.